Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Welcome to the next latest article of Mediacrap. ok! i can't really type in purrrfect english...as in..full typing...i nid to use short forms and broken english...at least a bit? =X anyways! today...tink lots of things happened? we had our usual lessons and stuff..and as usual...i was slping in bio lesson....dam! i wanna listen de leh! URGH! den got caught by mdm lung...and she ask me wats in my dream...and to escape...i said FOOD! lol...hmmmx...i wasnt listening in SS class..die....i hafta work on my SS OSO! URGH! hur hur! glad tt i settled sum cases outside sch...hahas.. now is all to studies...and abit of games of course...hahas! xP~ *transform* *pew pew*Today, on Mediacrap's news. We are really sad to announce that Edric had witnessed an unhappy event when he was going home. Edric, who is me, witnessed a car accident. While crossing the road near our school, i saw a cat (i suppose is female) carrying her kitten going across the road. I thought it was sweet, but when she was crossing the road, she lose her grip onto her kitten and let her kitten fell onto the middle of the road. The kitten cried helplessly when her mom went to the roadside to seek refuge from the in coming cars. I was only about more or less half a metre away from the kitten. I could run and grab the kitten and reach the other side with the kitten safe. But i did not. Instead, i walked even slower than my usual speed and stared at the kitten. If I had ran to grab the kitten, i could be knock down by the car. The kitten was ran over by the car. The kitten went under the car's wheels, twice. I was just standing be the road side and look at how the cat got run down by the car and did nothing. What am I good at? Talk? I am good at NOTHING! Not studies, not even saving a kitten. I thought the kitten was dead. Fortunately, it WASN'T!I heard it mew-ing after the car went by. I was relieved.
Then i cross the road and when i was side by side of the kitten, i saw the kitten's hind leg broken and not moving. Then, came another car. It was red in colour. I was given a second chance to safe the kitten, but again, i did not. What i did was just walking pass the kitten and keep mumbling the phrase "I'm really sorry." I kept turning back to look at the kitten and did nothing. When i was on the red pavement, i turned and looked back and saw a man carrying a young infant and holding a young child's hand putting up his left hand to signal for the car to stop. I quickly turn back and kept on walking. I suppose that the kitten was saved by the noble father of two. Parenthood is so noble. I can only be guilty for what I have done and not done. I really am sorry for what had happened. I had felt the urge to cry out and say sorry for what i have done to the kitten, but i knew it was of no use. The kitten is not able to understand what i said and i thought that it would hold a grudge for what i have not done but should have did. I was still pondering about how the kitten is doing now and still possess the guilt within me and is unable to be free from the entanglement. I soon found out that if it were some of my friends, they would rather die than to let the kitten suffer for the rest of its life. This had further add on to my guilt. I can never forget about the selfish act that i did. I can still hear the saddening cry from the kitten and how it had moved helplessly on the middle of the road as i walked pass it. I finally realise why did the saint murderers went to confess that they killed someone. Its because they lost to Guilt. The ordeal that they went through after their hands were stained with blood that is not their's. I felt useless. No, I am useless. What i hope now is for the kitten's forgiveness and not have the karmic retribution befalling onto my family. If people have to suffer because of this, choose me.
sry peepz if tis blog entry doesnt entertain u all much....im just too guilty to write anything funni when some living things are suffering out there becus of my selfishness....i really am sry.
`wiZo ouT`
posted @ 8:27 PM