Wednesday, August 17, 2005
heeeeyyyyyyaaaaa pppeeeepppzzzz....!! good day, good afternoon or good evening...wateva time u visit my blog...LoLx...kinda long since i blogged? hehe...i dun even remember when since i blogged...LoLX...anyways! im really tired recently...hahas...ytd i slept at 10 pm sia! woah! 1st time so early leh! today..nothing much happened...none tt will interest you all tt is..we had a talk in the morning by our principal...she was scolding us abt our mid year result and why SOME ppl din go for the self-study programme arranged for us...aiyo...den say we slack too much...and say tt other GOOD schs are going home at 5pm almost everyday and she even asked ms karvita to prove it! OMG! and said tt we went home at 4pm onli! omg....like shes said..they are frm good schs! gees! and..If she wan us to go back home at 5pm...sure! itz the effort you put in tt counts wat...the good schs students might be slacking and not working? At LEAST we did some of our work right? or why not they ban the subject D&T so that WE can concentrate IN OUR WORK!?? D&T still sucked as much la! Why must we compare to good sch? to motivate us in studying? well....they sure did...hahas...after tt i dunno y...but haf the sudden urgh to study? hahas...which made the purpose of the talk successful! temporarily...LOL!nothing happened much tru out the day...alot of teachers din come...ms eng got sore throat...becus she shouted too much in our class...itz really bad leh...urghhh..nid to apologise...hahas...and the last period was english....ENGLISH! OMG! A summary test! abt orangutan...i din noe tt orangutans are facing extinctiong too...until i read the passage..hahas....dam..it was really tuff lo...i almost fell alslp THRICE while i was reading...so i cant really concentrate well leh! die...no confident at all...haha...and ytd was our bio test.. 10 chapters! OMG! damm!!! so tuff oso...but alot ppl in my class say itz easy leh...and they say they shuldnt haf studied so hard on it..wah liew...so smart leh! anyways...back to today...hahas...i Slept awhile during chinese remedial ( becus i nid to retake...WAAAHHH)...infront of mdm goh...WAHAHA! lucky she nv scold me...cus got sec 3s oso! if got scolded...so diu lian (no face)...hahas..
den when i reach home...my bro went for tuition...and ttz y i can blog today! LOL! still as tired though...hahas...maybe caring does hurt....maybe being nonchalent on the surface abt tings are bad...maybe the onli best way to care is to put aside every other things and put ur ur whole heart into caring...itz like love...u haf to gif it all...i cared for most ppl...i dare not say everyone....but i do it secretly...maybe u all must be thinking now...."you must be joking..a person like u cared?! gees!"...maybe becus im too shy or sumting...i just cant bring myself to talk to them...i cant be a joker and make ppl luff anymore...i haf to be serious...cus im losing my frens...im losing ppl who really cared for me...i do treasure them...but maybe i took them for granted...maybe i deserved to be treated like that...i did nothing but causing trouble and pain to everyone...im better off dead correct? BUt seriously..if u really wan sumting to NOT happen...itz will gradually happen...in a minority form tt is..like me...i dun wan anyone to hate me...but i noe sumone out there hated me to the core...i tried my best...really...maybe i just dunno how to talk..or persuade...i just wan them to forgive me...i really wan them back...but will they forgive me? i tink i've being insensitive enough...time to wake up...maybe they are the most precious "wake up calls" to wake me up...and like the ringing sound of the alarm...it faded of after u did sumting to it...pressing "buttons".. i just wan everyone to be happy...and not hate me...i did too much...now..i just hope that they will forgive me...
`WizO oUt`
posted @ 7:17 PM