Monday, September 19, 2005
Once again...im sick and tired once more....had chinese today...the paper was oK...maybe is becus i alrdy noe tt they are taking the june o lvl paper result if i did badly for prelims....so i secured a b4 alrdy...maybe itz tt bah..but still..i tried...i dunno if itz my best or not...i did it the way i did for o lvl....i dun even noe wat is my best and wat is not...wat is my best? when did i do my best? i dunno...i haf absolutely no ideas....the comprehension for chinese was so touching...i almost cried when i finish reading...i will if i did not tell myself tt i nid to answer the questions below....seriously..i almost cried....and after the paper....sumting tt made me almost lose control and cried in my classroom....(we had our exams in the hall btw).....ms eng was telling me tt i did the worse qns among the classes...and i tot she was kidding....but i kinda abit shock though....but after my papers are collected and released...i went up to her and asked....and she said..."u really did the worse in all the 4 qns."
"i tink u better buck up in ur SS,
"if not u cannot pass humanities like tt"
"And i dun tink u can pass geog alrdy....10 marks qn and u onli gave me 2 lines"
When i heard her words....they just pierced thru' my heart and left my heart to bleed...i argued one sentence..."No lo, i wrote at least 5-6 sentence or even 2 paragraphs!" <--i was trying to act as my normal self as i was still bleeding....and the rest of the conversation...i was merely nodding my head....when i was accompanying Jam to find mdm roz...i was looking on the floor and not dare to say a word...but Jam kept consoling me....when we were in the classroom...and Jam went toilet...i collapse on the chair and lay my head dwn onto the table...i was tinking over and over....and tears was arnd my eyes....for the 1st time in class....i seldom cry in sch or in class one...cus im usually crazy and smiley...and den i told myself tt i will not cry in class! if i wan to...cry at home! or dun cry at all! den the tears recedes...Jam was back and he started styling my hair wif wax (i lazy style liao)....and i told myself....get back to ur normal self and be cheerful! ppl here dun owe me anything...dun sulk! so i kinda acted tt i was ok and went on smiling and chatting.....................................................................
I just dun wan to let Ms Eng or anyone down anymore! i wanna work hard! alot of ppl haf high hopes on me! i cant let them dwn! i haf their trust tt i will do well and i will and i must do well and let them see tt i can really do it! i was really demoralized earlier on...thankfully there are my frens....Special thx to Jam, Mich and Nicholas (not in our sch)....thx alot! thx for supporting me and consoling me! thx for pushing me! i seriously hope tt i will work hard and finally excel in my work! i really does! As for darrell...if u wanna go overseas...just go....but if u can stay here for one more year but still go after 1 year...i tink staying here for one more year is better...at least u can spend a little more time wif ur frens...like me....LOlz...oh and and...dun forget any of ur frens....namely...ME again...LoL!! xP~ oh...and gar meng...hahas....so long liao i still rmb his name sia! hahas.. =X so ya..i hafta go now ppl...so long and bye bye! tag more often k? and i will try to blog more often too!
Time will heal all wounds
Leaving scars on it.
Pain will recede
Result will concede
Determination is tested
Lose the game
Lost your aim.
Goals are shattered
Dreams are dashed
Never give up
While you still can
Pick up what u shattered
Chase back what ran by
That is when
You truely won,
Yourself.
posted @ 5:55 PM