Thursday, March 30, 2006
OKAY! today im gonna get rude and vulgar for i have not sleep a wink since 3am ( the time im turning in). Wanna know why? read on.I was about to sleep after switching the computer off when i heard the sound of some keys jingling outside our house door. Yeah, it's my brother coming home at 3am+. I thought it was nothing and acted like im already asleep when im wide awake. He came into the room and without hesitating, he switched on the lights, picked up the phone, dialled a number and started talking over the phone. It was his girlfriend. Okay, i thought it was just like some other irritating nights that after half an hour or so, he will hang up. Why i say it to be irritating is because like some other brothers, we shared our room and he was talking or should i say shouting over the phone on his bed which is beside my bed. To tell you people the truth, my sense of hearing is very sensitive when i'm asleep. Imagine all that noise he is making.
Okay, let's continue. So he kept on talking and talking and i waited so long for him to hang up. However, NOOOOOOOOOO. He decided not to. They were in an arguement ( sorry i have to say this) like some other nights too. I was so totally pissed off when he was speaking loudly over the phone as if there's no one sleeping at that time. Am i like invisible?! I may be thin and shorter than him but i'm very sure i am big enough for him to see that i am TRYING to sleep right?! Even when i gave those annoyed sighs, he remain ignorant and feign that no one is there. Even when my Mom goes to work in the morning at 6+am, He is still talking on the phone! Can you imagine how long i have to flip around my bed listening to the F.U.C.KING noise that he is making?! MAN, don't he sleep? Have he have no consideration at all?! He used to kick me and ask me to go out of the room when i answered the phone in our room late in the morning in the past. Look at what he is doing now?! LOOK AT WHAT HE THINKS OF HIMSELF! SELFISH, INCONSIDERATE ARSEHOLE!
I was so fed up to the point that i went to the living room and sleep. Even when he saw me stomping my feet into living room, he did nothing. I checked the time and it was 6 48am. I was sms-ing Jasmine because she's going to school. At 7.02am, he finally hung up and he came out and asked me into the room. "Oi, hao le. Ke yi jing qu le". I was like WHAT THE F.U.C.K he take me as?! Is there no basic manners in saying sorry anymore?! I went into the room and tried to sleep. Fortunately, i manage to sleep awhile BEFORE HIS FARKING ALARM WOKE ME UP AGAIN! WHY CAN'T HE JUST SPARE ME FROM HIS OWN CHORE?! After he went out, i tried to sleep. However, the dawn light is already at its brightest. I can't sleep anymore. Yet i still tried to sleep. I was flipping here and there on my bed from 12+ till the time when i finally gave up 4+pm. I woke up having a slight headache. Why am i suffering when he is now out there having fun of his own? Many adults says that younger siblings can always learn from the older ones. I BEG TO DIFFER! "Only learn from those with good example and for your own and others' advantage". Sad to say, I don't see ANYTHING that is good in my brother. Oh yes. He is very good looking. That i can't learn right? For i am ugly.
Anyways, i think i am going for a briefing for selling UOB cards in a roadshow that Michelle is currently working in. Can earn big money there. However there is one problem. I'm not confident of doing it. Approaching strangers have always been a chore to me although all my friends would say i have no problem in this because "shy" is never in my dictionary. That's because i am myself when i am with my friends. That is why there are no limit to my behaviour. To strangers, i am shy, withdrawn and reserved. That's what i am. So should i go? i want to go, yet, there's a tiny bit of my refusing to go. Any support for me to go? I need it. Thanks.
Oh by the way, My latest wish -- To see my dear fairy godmother. x)~
posted @ 6:37 PM