Monday, July 10, 2006
I do realise that Friends are hard to keep. It's hard to stay in contact with each and every friends you have in your life although you very much want to be a little closer each day and not get pull apart. Some try their very best to keep in touch with each other while some others just don't care. Some do have the thoughts but the effort is not there. While some in-human people just forgets about what friends are and couldn't differentiate between friends and acquaintances.Be it friends or acquaintances, they've come into our lives for a reason. And for that, we should treasure every moment of the time together with them. I want to do these. I want to go out with every friends i knew everyday and link to them more. I want to be closer to them, but how? I can't replicate myself nor can i clone myself. It won't be the real me anyway. Everyday when i go online, i wanted to talk to everyone online, communicate with them more. Everytime i try to communicate with someone whom i have failed to talk to for very long, it will still fail even after the long duration. When others talk to me, i take them for granted. Seriously now, i don't think i really deserve anything from them. Sometimes i may even think that it's a chore in replying their messages when there are just too many to reply. (sorry to say that, but i don't want to hide anything, my friends)
I felt that i've changed. For the worse. Points that i have changed. Tell me if they are right or wrong. Feel free to tag me some points to show that i have changed.
1) I have been very rebellious lately. Especially to my parents.
2) I used to get very emotional when one person ignores me. Now the feeling is getting more shallow.
3) I am putting less effort in my work now in poly.
4) I am getting more and more oblivious to the surrounding.
5) I used to care alot if anyone hates me, but lately i thought about it, i don't really care about it anymore.
6) My mood swings alters alot and it's not PMS =X
7) I am easily angered more now as compared to my yester-years.
8) I think i don't like to talk anymore when i love to chat.
I think thats it for now bah. Anyone have any pointers on how i've changed? please tag me or drop me a message. The daily nagging at night and the daily shouting has became a routine to me now. I am feeling numb towards the surrounding. Maybe it is only me. When my parents shouts at me, i get the feeling of being more rebellious and not do as they say. Is this part of growing? Please tell me. I want to end this.
posted @ 1:30 AM