Tuesday, November 28, 2006
AAAAALLLLLRIGHT! I get it already. I know i haven't been blogging very often for now and people are leaving my blog to another blog, letting mine to be as dead as ever. NOOOO. please don't leave! Actually, i kinda forgot about my user and password for my blog account but thankfully i got an easy to remember user and password. So yeah no worries! this blog will go on! provided that i have the time and i feel hardworking enough. :XOkay back to blogging.
I've realised how much things are actually going on in my life now. Upset ones, happy moments and of course, the ones caught in the middle. It's really depressing on how people changes as time goes on and how the happy memories made you regret not really treasuring time more. Sometimes you would just wished that Time was a little slower for you to catch your breathe and enjoy life to the very end.
In primary school, we were naive and innocent and know no worries except playgrounds and fun. When graduated from Primary, we moved on to Secondary, hoping for a better life than in the previous years. With both acadamic and peer pressure, we moved on hastily and graduated in no time. While in Tertiary (T) level, we wished that time were slower. Giving Us, human, more Time to live our lives and cherish what were in the previous years. Those fond memories. Those fun times. Those times when we were still loony and messing around with your own cliques in the public.
Unlike in Primary and Secondary, it is way too difficult to bond in the Tertiary level. Cliques changes now and then. People direct their attention to new friends, forgetting how the "old" ones, who once had so much fun together. Feeling left-out is also one of the fact that One must get over with in T. If you can't be as loud or louder than the clique, you get left behind. Simple as that. If you are not a fun person to be with, you get outcast. No matter how hard We try, things will always be that way. Fixed and systematic. I guess that's life. No matter what we try to do to get One's trust and friendship, gradually, we'll lose them. No matter how much effort you put in, they just wouldn't care. Living by the days is just too common in T. Caring no longer exist. Only when you are needed, you are asked for.
I hope for Primary and Secondary. Life without worries nor stress. Life without emotion distress. Life so carefree and wild. Maybe i'm just not cut out to be an independent young man. I need friends. Yet they've hurt me far to many times. Not all, but the few whom i really cared for. It's surprising to find that sometimes people whom i thought wouldn't care cared. This makes who i care for meaningless and pointless. I'm sick. I'm tired. At times, being selfish is required. Being emotionless would be best. Being nonchalent will bring an end to controversy nor emotional breakdown. It's too difficult to live. Too hard to breathe. I miss the times. I miss the happiness. I miss them.
posted @ 1:22 AM